Gratitude List #40

I had a great weekend away. However, Monday morning things started to crumble again. At Monday morning practice, a team member of mine called me out on using my cell phone during the warm up. I usually use it to listen to music to warm up. That specific morning I was also texting my mother about a surgery she was going to have. After the warm up, I kindly went up to this person and explained why I was on my cellphone and asked if she could not call me out in front of the group, but rather come up to me after the warm up is done. She continued to argue with me, saying that I am on it constantly. I let it go, it was 5:30am, I was in no mood to ruin this morning. Still I was upset. Then after practice when we were getting into the van, I had my backpack and crew bag on. I was trying to let her pass me to get into the back seat. She got very frustrated, and instead of using her words she proceeded to punch my backpack to move it out of the way. She ended up hitting my backpack in a way that twisted my back. Since then I have had horrible back pain. I even have a bruise on my back.

Here is the thing, I would let this all go and say that it's the end of the semester, people are stressed out etc. However, this person has said horrible things behind my back earlier in the season, despite me ever doing anything to her. Also I don't know if I want to let someone get away with hurting someone, both physically and emotionally. Maybe labeling it "bullying" is a little extreme, but it really feels like she is a big bully. I don't really feel safe around her, not knowing what her next move will be.

This week I also found out I may need to have surgery for my thumb. Luckily it's not needed immediately. Still my thumb, in addition to my back, have been causing me lots of pain.

Nevertheless, here is what I am grateful for.

1. Spinning Tuesdays and Thursdays with Belle. So much fun and the instructor is pretty cute :)

 2. My trip to Boston this weekend with Marianna. 

3. One year anniversary with Sandy.
http://cjwthankyou.blogspot.com/2012/10/thank-you-293.html

4. Evelyn. She is interviewing me for a paper she is doing. She sent me a very sweet email thanking me for letting her use my story.

5. Yoga in Boston at Exhale. So needed and so appreciated.

6. Seeing mom. Was happy that the visit went very well.
http://cjwthankyou.blogspot.com/2012/10/thank-you-291.html

7. Talk with Dad last night. Haven't talked to him for a while, it was great to catch up.
8. Sunday. I am grateful I got to take that day off and just focus on myself, getting everything I needed done.

9.  Dinner by myself the other night. So nice to grab a meal and eat alone with my People Magazine.

10. Hall staff. At last night meeting, we had such a great honest chat. I really appreciated having them there for me.